The Ego, the Reference Point
Bob says 'That entity has never done a bloody thing in its life'.
Thoughts about the separate entity still occur. Thoughts about the 'me' still occur. Thoughts about good things and bad things within the full range of duality - a lot of scope there!.
Seeing through the 'me' means that they pass through uncorrected, unedited, unmodified. Without them being latched onto - no-one there to take delivery of them, as 'Sailor' Bob says.
Choices are just made and they arise too - after all they are thoughts as well. The thoughts that are apparently concerned with that apparent 'choice' also arise spontaneously, along with the choice.
The apparency is that there is a separate human there that is apparently weighing up the evidence and apparently making a choice. In actually, all of these things occur/arise as part of our part of the natural functioning - the only difference is that there is a conceptual 'me' that latches onto that and claims ownership - a conceptual me that is nonexistent except as the content of some thoughts.
The spontaneous arising is Life itself - and we are that. Life itself is ever fresh, always arising, always new. That is where our Aliveness is - always alive and vibrant, apparently beneath the stream or torrent of mental conceptualization which we think is 'me'.
It is when we believe that the conceptual one, the nonexistent one is the REAL 'me' - which has all the thoughts, does all these things that we apparently lose touch with the full and complete Aliveness that is always present. Lost in thought and we think it is Life Itself.
Identifying with the 'me' is identifying with variability and changeability. The ego feels 'good' one moment and 'bad' the next. And we think it is 'me'. Awareness is changeless, but you cannot identify with Awareness or call it your Identity. Awareness is your true nature, but there is no-one there - it is non-Personal and no- thing, so there is nothing there to identify with.
Seeing through the 'me' means a re-cognising occurs - a seeing of Awareness by itself. It is all in the Seeing. Not thinking, not deducing, not theorising, not hoping. SEEing alone will do.
More accurately, you cannot say 'from consciousness' at all as that is dualistic. Describing it that way refers to something that is separate (like a separate Source) from which it comes. Whatever arises, arises in the immediacy of the present moment. There is no separation. No apparent slicing up of Oneness. No 'from' and no 'to'.
If there is no 'me' there now - has there ever been a 'me' there at all? Granted it may have felt like it - but was it actually there at all - ever? This question is also inescapable.
There was never a 'me' there at all - ever!! At no time did the illusion exist.
Seeing through the 'me' means seeing that it has no substance whatsoever. It can also be seen that at NO time did it ever have a substantial existence - ever.
It was only ever an illusion. Illusions do not exist at one time and not later on - illusions never actually exist. There never was an ego, so you don't have to 'exercise it daily, keep it in good shape'.
Having said all that - does it make a difference when the 'me' is seen to be the fiction that it is and always has been?
It never existed and is now seen to have never existed. Any belief in it has gone - its credibility is shot!
All that has occurred is the SEEing. Awareness has not changed - after all it is changeless. There never was an ego and there still isn't.
All that has happened is the Seeing of the False as False.
Does it really make a difference?
With that belief goes the dream of the 'me'.
With that dream goes the ' sufferer', the one who urgently needed to become enlightened.
With that dream goes the psychological suffering as well.
It is all in the SEEing.
Written by Mike Graham, 17 March 2008, last edited 19 Mar 2008.